Watching Movies

So, having a lot of friends with girls, often times I hear the phrase, "Oh, he is so hot!" etc. Being a closet gay, it takes a lot out of me to no agree with them. Or, when I see someone who I think is really cute, and one of them says, "I don't think he's cute at all," and I just want to jump in and say, "I think he's cute." Of course, that can't happen. Well, this happens all the time, and recently, it was during one of the weirdest movies, Heathers. lol. Christian Slater is so freaking hot in that movie and I don't care what anyone else says, but my friends would definitely disagree. Though his mannerisms and the way he speaks could be annoying, I think it's a bit enticing, and kinda hot. lol. Not to mention, he's pretty cute during the 80s. Today, not so much.



And on the other end of the spectrum, is watching "guy" movies with my family. lol. Not too long ago, we watched Major League from 1989. It has a young Charlie Sheen in it. Of course, my family loves baseball and thinks its a hilarious movie, but when I watched it, I couldn't help, but stair at all of the hot men. lol. Especially Charlie Sheen, even more in particular, this really hot scene in the locker room.

HOT!!!!!!!!

Cute Boy of the Day

Driving to my friends house, I heard "Smooth" by Santana ft. Rob Thomas, and it hit me, Rob Thomas a a sexy voice. Just the way he sings "Smooth" turns me on. And not only is his voice sexy, but he's not bad to look at either.

Cute Boy of the Day

David Beckham is the sexiest man alive! I saw his autobiography last night at a bookstore. I pretended to be interested and jokingly/sarcastically went, "Lemme see!" I immediately went straight for the photo's section. If it wouldn't have been out of character, I would have bought it, so I could stare at those pictures all the time. Though, I think the one below is my favorite.

Work

So, I work at a place where we get all sorts of customers. We have a lot of regular customers too. So, often times, I see a lot of really hot guys, and I can't help but to stare at them. lol. So there's this one regular customer that comes in, he's super buff. Most of the time he comes in after work, and it looks to me like he is a construction worker or something. Sexy? Inorite? He always wheres these shorts with long white socks and boots. Idk why, but I think it's super hot. Usually he looks like this picture, but today he wore knee highs, and I couldn't keep my eyes off of him. I hope nobody noticed.


This is a screen shot from a youtube video I found. I needed to somehow illustrate what I'm talking about. lol.

Glee!

Glee is my new media guilty pleasure. Although, the only thing I feel guilty about is thinking that Finn, Puck, and Mr. Schue are really hot. But seriously, I love that freaking show. Tonight's episode was so-so, but last weeks "Power of Madonna" was spectacular.



Finn and Puck are super cute. Wish I had boys like that at my high school.

New Day

Today was boring. School, then work.

Cute Boy of the Day
I was watching America's Next Top Model and I saw a commercial for Love Games: Bad Girls Need Love Too. This is Nick. He is so freaking hot!!!! He has a scar on his chin, which is so sexy! lol. I'll be honest, reality show guys are my weak spot! lol.

Welcome!

So, this is new. I've decided that I want to start a blog about me. The real me. I'm gay, but nobody knows; I'm a closet homo. I can't tell my family because I'm quite sure it'll shame them. I can't tell my friends for fear that it will spread, and get back to my family. In on honestly, I'm content being "in the closet" and I don't want to cause more stress in my life. I mean, on top of going to school and work, I have to hide something that I feel, is really essential to my being. I didn't chose to be gay, it just happened. I don't know what research suggests, but I feel that I was born gay. Ever since I was little, I always preferred to play with dolls and dress up instead of regular "boy" things.

I realized I was gay when I hit high school. I remember sitting in my Spanish class thinking, "Oh, my God, I'm gay," and I was actually really scared. I kept wondering, "why me?" Though, I didn't dwell on it too much. Somehow, I think my parents know, well, I think my mom knows. Or, she can at least figure it out. If she were to confront me about it, it would be so much easier. But unless I get that feeling that my family will accept me, I won't tell them.

I do wish the world was more accepting, but alas, it is not. Until then, her is Closet Fag Anonymous.

Cheers!